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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Why Am I Jobless?




Leonardo Da Vinci, Albert Einstein, Vincent Van Gogh.

What do they have in common? First of all, they clearly used the right side of their brain more dominantly. Secondly, they are known to have lived miserable lives. Why?

Well, probably because of the same fact that made them great: they used the right side of their brains more dominantly. They foregone common logic; little, minute details; and setting real, tangible goals. They were, for the most part, subjective, rather than objective. They were creative, not always productive; intuitive rather than rational; and random rather than sequential.

Why am I telling you this?

Because recently, I took a quiz on Facebook, and discovered that I too use the right-side of my brain more dominantly.

Why is this important? Because this little piece of information made me realize a great deal about myself.

It has been more than a year since I graduated and I am still unemployed in the basic sense of the word. Sure, I am currently working as a columnist for Edge; I am a DJ for 105.9 Mix FM, and I do freelance copy writing, hosting and performing (with my band, Walnut Avenue), but in the truest sense of the word, I am unemployed.

Since graduating I have turned down many job opportunities, for one reason or another. Last month though, I was offered a great position in a prestigious, multi-national company. Of course, “great” and “prestigious”, being descriptions the common man would use to describe the position and company. However, the company, or the work that would have been asked from me if and when I decided to join the company, was not my cup of tea, and would have probably served as the perfect distraction from the things I love doing.

Looking back, if I had gone through with my application for the said company, I would probably now have my own car, my own rented studio apartment, my own everyday itinerary, my own set of ties and dress shirts, my own high-tech cell phone, and my own taste of proper employment.

But I turned the offer down (much to the dismay of my parents, friends, and even acquaintances). Why? Because like Da Vinci, Einstein and Van Gogh, I too used my right brain.

Sure, I would have all those material things and bragging rights for working in a multi-national company, but what I wouldn't have was happiness. Foolish as it may seem to other people, I did not regret my decision.

If I took that job, I wouldn’t have this column. I would not be able to touch, teach, guide and inspire the people of my generation. I wouldn't have the chance to share my talents the best way I know how. I wouldn’t get paid to have fun.

So just like all the greats before me, I forgot logic, tangible goals, and conforming to society’s standards; I chose the road less traveled.

I do not regret turning down the offer, not a little, not a bit, not with any part of my system (although people always tell me I should). I do not regret following my heart, because somehow, someway, I know something good, something GREAT is in store for me. Right now, I do not know what it is, or when it will come, i just know that it will, and 'til then I will keep on trusting that the Big Guy above will give it to me.

However, I understand why people feel that my life is empty, pointless. I do not live up to society’s standards. I do not make money, I do not have a car, heck, I do not even have cell phone load, half the time, but I am content. I am happy.

I like my life, I like being able to touch people's lives with just a phrase, I like being able to do what I really want, I like having the courage to do what I feel is right.

And it made me realize, maybe we got it all wrong. Maybe Van Gogh, Da Vinci and Einstein didn’t really live miserable lives; maybe society just thought they were. Because I understand what they feel, I understand what they have gone through.

We are actually happy with the stuff we put out in the world at large. It is society that is unhappy about the way we live our lives, it is society that tells us that we should be miserable because we do not have anything, and it is society that puts too much pressure on us to do what most people do: live generic corporate lives.

But I am not like most people, and my dear reader, you probably aren't too. So please give yourself a break and relax. Do not believe them when they say the opportunities you let go were such a waste, do not believe them when they say the proper thing to do is to accept any job offer that comes along, although it may get tempting at times. Do not believe them when they say happiness is equivalent to a perfect girlfriend or boyfriend, a 6-digit pay check and your own wheels.

I know it is job-hunting season, and you feel the pressure to land a job right away, and maybe you should, if you believe that is what you want. But if you believe that you were made to do something else, then by all means, take your time until you find what it is you truly want to do.

The world will not wait for you, but you can wait until your time of greatness comes. And trust me, it will come, it always does. Ask Van Gogh, Da Vinci and Einstein. Their times of greatness may have come a little bit too late, but it came. You are great, dear reader, know it, own it, and live up to it.

Not conforming to the standards society has set does not make you any less of an individual. It puts you up in the ranks of all the greats.

Happiness is doing what your truly want, no matter what the world says. And when you have realized this, you will have reached Partyphile nirvana: the place where the only thing you need (to have a truly great party) is Your own company.

Confession: I know it is hard, and people are trying put pressure on you to land a job immediately after graduating, but my dear partyphile reader, for once, do your self a favor and find what it is you truly want to do in life. As for me, I am still searching for the thing thing that would make me truly happy; and for the people to bring along with me on my journey towards Partyphile Nirvana.

7 comments:

Discreet Infidel said...

tumpak na tumpak! happiness is doing what you want.

"Not conforming to the standards society has set does not make you any less of an individual. It puts you up in the ranks of all the greats." ayos sad ni oh.. yeah

Ed said...

I think I really can feel where you are going or what you are going through.

I almost turned down this certain job offer when I graduated. I almost challenged myself to look for what I am good at and start from there. I even thought of working freelance. yet, I ended up taking that job offer and somehow, I'm fine with my current job but not so much happy with it because I know for myself that I can't maximize my potentials there. But still, im enjoying the challenges im facing. When taking a job, it's also not all about the pay.. It's not about working on things but on how you make things work.



My say? Just do what makes you happy. You are still young. Oh yeah, WE ARE. LOL

Good luck to us..

telaijarabelo said...

"people are trying put pressure on you to land a job immediately after graduating"

- hear hear. thanks for sharing this zhaun. i can soooo relate, i swear. T.T

nway, favor naman o! if you know any job opportunities, etc. sabihan moko please! haha.

Anonymous said...

good things come to those who wait Zhaun...

bitchvarsity said...

^my question is, WHY WAIT? hehehe

anyway, yeah just enjoy life. at least we are not pressured to put food on the table. :)

Anonymous said...

"the courage to do what I feel is right"

"You are great, dear reader, know it, own it, and live up to it."

We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.

Anonymous said...

@zhaun: the blog is amazing. somehow ive been on that shoe you're in. You know, i personally love this line from MS. CONGENIALITY: "PEOPLE CARE ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT THEMSELVES, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, I JUST DONT CARE." KEEP ROCKIN. MOVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT IT. THE BLATANT TRUTH IS YOU ONLY GOT TO LIVE ONCE/ so dont get bling just to meet up the expectations of other people. JUST AS LONG AS YOU DONT STEP ON ANYONE ELSES SHOE, KEEP IT COOL. THE LORD HAS PLANS FOR YOU;) God bless you kuya. -krizy